Wednesday, April 1, 2009

5 Weeks, 5 Days


I am still waiting for a bunch of fabulous, definitive pregnancy symptoms to pop up, and for the most part, I feel the same physically as I did this time last month (with the exception of the bulging ovaries I had during stims). This is all so surreal: my husband tells me I'm pregnant, I have a good HCG level and then...nothing, or nothing I expected.

After 2 1/2 years of negative tests, I expected this change of mass proportion to take over my body when I was finally pregnant. Pregnancy seemed like a mystical state of being, and I never imagined it being so 'normal'. Frankly, I'm a little nervous about that and would almost prefer the "solace" of raging vomiting episodes.

I have wrestled all week with (my lack of) symptoms. I keep waiting for something magnificent to arise, and to date, it hasn't happened yet. Thusfar, I've experienced:

-Slight fatigue, but nothing overwhelming

-A couple of instances of low grade nausea, but nothing debilitating

-I'm really thirsty all the time, which leads to numerous trips to the bathroom

-Mild cramping (which is more and more intermittent)

-Insomnia - I go to sleep very easily and invariably wake up at about 2 or 3 and can't go back to sleep, and yes, this is a symptom of early pregnancy per Dr. Google.

-Sore breasts

-Vivid dreams (when I finally do sleep)

I am trying to refrain from believing the old wive's tale that a healthy pregnancy is a vomiting pregnancy. Hopefully, I'm just blessed with very few horrible symptoms or maybe it's just too early. After all the stims, hormonal injections and terrifying calls from the IVF nurses (whom I really miss these days, believe it or not!), things are pretty quiet on the pregnancy front.

On another note, I got to tell my dentist I'm pregnant on Monday. For 2 1/2 years, I've been awaiting the moment I could finally announce my pregnancy in response to the obligatory: "So...are there any changes to your health status?"

It's amazing sharing the news in the World of the Fertiles because no one questions anything at all - they seem to cherish a sweet, naive peace of mind that a beautiful baby will magically pop out in 9 months. I was met with high pitched congratulations followed by advice about baby shower gifts.

Ignorance really must be bliss.

One day closer to April 10: Ultrasound Day.

18 comments:

Megan said...

My girlfriend has no pregnancy sysmptoms and just saw the heartbeat.

Don't worry. I'm sure everything is fine.

Liz said...

Yeah, and you didn't know what to expect anyway!

Gettign there for the 10th.

Lauren said...

Amen, sister, ignorance is bliss. I get the same thing when people with no fertility issues fine out I'm pregnant. No issues, just a "that's great, congrats!" Meanwhile, I'm here waiting for the shoe to drop or something!

They say a vomiting pregnancy is a healthy one, but it's probably the same people who say or think morning sickness only happens in the morning. Thousands of healthy babies are born each day to women who had no vomiting. If you don't get that particular symptom, count yourself lucky!

Anonymous said...

I didn't get sick until 6 weeks and man did it hit me then.

Eileen said...

Be careful what you wish for girl! This all day sickness BITES!!! I hope you are one of the ones who miraculously escapes it! Can't wait to see your ultrasound pics!

Carrie said...

Don't believe any old wives' tales... there is no science or proof behind any of it, just chance and hearsay.

I have hardly been nauseous at all and haven't thrown up once and have had a totally text book pregnancy with a very healthy baby.

:)

KandiB said...

I didn't really have any symptoms until about week 10..then it was just mild nausea that went away with constant nibbling. Never any vomiting. It will be amazing when you see the ultrasound!

Courtney said...

You've got this. Imagine if you told all those ladies at the dentists office that you're not having symptoms. Most of them would encourage you to be blissfully ignorant as well and say that a lot of pregnancies don't have awful symptoms.
I agree, it really must be so nice to be so unaware that having a baby is not so easy...
BUT, April 10th will be here soon!

Angelwingsbaby said...

Don't worry about not having nausea,I have a friend who is due in june with her second child and both pg's she didn't have any vomiting or nausea.Both pg's were uneventful and her first resulted in a healthy boy and she is having a girl this time.

mommy of girls said...

Ok, doll...you KNOW how sick I was. I vomited sun up to sun down. I mean seriously, who goes into delivery weighing 12 pounds and 15 pounds less than when they got pregnant??? But even with all that, 1) it never hit me until around 6 1/2 to 7 weeks, so maybe there will be some sickness to come. And, 2) I would NEVER wish that on anyone. Don't get me wrong...I wouldn't trade a day of my pregnancies. I LOVED being pregnant. But, I know lots of people who were never sick. (Of course, it made me want to kick them in the shins!! But either way, they just weren't sick.) :-) I guess my point is this...EVERYONE has a different pregnancy. And not even Dr. Google can predict how YOUR pregnancy will go. Just enjoy it, doll. Relax and enjoy. Count your blessings if you never get sick...and count them even more so if you do. Because either way...this pregnancy is a true blessing. I remember praying to God to please fill my womb with a baby. I begged. I bargained. And I swore that I would vomit every day without complaint if He would bless me with a child. And he did. And I did not (complain that is). I vomited multiple times an hour for all my waking hours for about 34 weeks straight. And in the end...two priceless gifts that were worth every minute of it. I wear my stretch marks as a badge of honor...I hung my head over many a toliet, trash can, parking lot, etc...with pride. I pray that you aren't sick. Truly I do. But more than anything, I pray that God bless you with peace to soak in your pregnancy. To really enjoy the fact that you are pregnant. That you are a mommy. And that at the end of all this is the best blessing(s) you will ever be given. Love ya, doll! Praying for peace for you....and hoping it doesn't come in the form of sickness! :-)

Jane G said...

My mother had eight pregnancies, seven live births, and as far as I know didn't suffer with morning sickness on any of us. So try not to worry. Easy for me to say in my non pregnant state! Often symptoms don't kick in for six weeks or so. That scan date is getting nearer :)

nishkanu said...

Go read this:

http://abeautifulday.blogs.com/a_beautiful_day/2004/12/when_ivf_works_.html

Best description I have found of post-IVF pregnancy and why you should not torture yourself about lack of symptoms.

Penny said...

Yea. The lack of strong symptoms or strong visual confirmation sucks, and that goes on a long long time. Wait until you're in your 4th month, when the 1st trimester side effects vanish and you have more energy and you look fat but STILL not pregnant. Oy. It's hard to deal with after all the infertility stuff.

just me said...

I understand wanting to "feel" pregnant and one way of feeling it is to be sick. But I certainly think that you are very blessed to not feel sick. I was incredibly sick before I even knew I was pregnant with DD, but my SIL was hardly ever sick with either of her pregnancies. Every one is different. You may find that something you used to LOVE no longer tastes wonderful but is actually one of the worst things you have ever put in your mouth (for me it was coffee - decaf of course, dark chocolate and steak).

I am so very happy for you. Next Friday is going to be so incredibly exciting for you. You are goin to get to see your little bean for the first time. WOW!!! I am still praying for you, my friend. You have been on an emotional roller coaster for a long time. It is going to take some adjustment to this new roller coaster you are now on. But this one is going to be so much more enjoyable. Relish it, treasure it, hold on tight to it. I cannot wait to hear more about your sweet little bean!

Anonymous said...

Here is the good news. With M. I was sick and I was tired and felt awful...I could barely make it for the first 3 months....it was probably a sign of things to come.
With A., I had no bad vomiting, little symptoms but very little and I felt worried that I should be feeling things...I do believe she was my best baby and easiest pregnancy so you are in luck.

With J. I was sick after month 7 - for 3 solid weeks and then she was born 5 weeks early. She is smart and focused but was a really demanding baby.

I think you might be in for a sweet bundle of joy with little rolls on her legs, little curls on her head and the most precious smile! that is my best description of A. as a baby!

All these fun facts aside, just enjoy the feeling pretty good, you've got swollen ankles, sore ribs, lower back pain, big nose, puffy lips, stretch marks, and hemorrhoids to go.....ha ha ha ha.

I can't wait until April 10th - you've got to call me - I just can't wait to hear the news.
my best picture which rests in my mind at all times is a head full of curls and full of energy!

How is your Mom feeling? I know she must have "grand-ma" brain right now really bad.

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