Today I am psyching myself up for the big box of medications that will arrive on Thursday. You see, I've been dreading the arrival of this box for many months - every time I pondered the prospect of IVF I thought about that damned box and everything it represents to me: over $1000 of medicines and needles to remedy what my body is apparently not doing for some reason.My two-timer IVF "friend" showed me her box of IVF meds once. I made myself look at it while cooing positive affirmations because I knew it was so difficult for her. Of course, all the while I was thinking, "Surely that won't happen to us...we'll never come to that point."
And, now here we are. We have officially arrived at that unthinkable stop on the yellow brick IF road.
So, today I'm trying to think of that box as the ultimate Christmas gift - the present we are giving ourselves that could dramatically change everything in our lives forever.
Let's hope so anyway.
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I was actually excited to see that box. Although yea, it's crazy that all of those drugs will go into your body in a matter of weeks.
I know it's not the ideal situation but for some of us IVF isn't even an option for monetary reasons so in that respect you are very fortunate. Good luck to you.
I like your attitude! I can't wait to get my box o' meds! I really hope I get to do stimulation this cycle (I don't want to wait!!!). I look forward to hearing more about your progress!
I don't know whether to run with the yellow brick road metaphor and suggest you've found courage in the emerald city of IVF or the Christmas one and hope this is the gift that keeps giving. Either way good attitude and good luck.
I hope that box contains magical potions and it is wrapped all neatly with a bow!! GL!
I like the idea of a Christmas gift. That's a good one! I picked up my meds yesterday. After reading your $1,000, I'm even more grateful for insurance. I had co-pays on almost all but one med. Amazing. What a huge blessing.
I will admit, even though I'm excited (as one can be) about starting this process, all the meds overwhelmed me. I just put them in a box (I was told to keep them all in one place) and placed them on a shelf. (except the one that needed to be refrigerated)
I've got to find sometime to map everything out. I'm going to go for my blood test a day early, so I think we'll both start Lupron on the same day now... eek!!
I love how you are able to look on that box with such a positive attitude. Christmas in September!!! Yeah for you. Now, we can pray that it all goes smoothly and works and by Christmas in December, you are celebrating a cute baby bump! I'll be thinking about you and praying.
I was so excited to see UPS drive up with that box, it was definitely like Christmas! I bet you will be as well...it is scary and exciting at the same time! :)
I'm praying for you, girl!
((HUGS))
Good for you for trying to think about it in the most positive way...hoping you get the gift you've been wanting soon.
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