Wednesday, November 12, 2008

I Hate to Be a Debbie Downer, But...



...I am.

E2 = 278
Follicles with hope of maturing = 3

We're screwed for this cycle. We're going to do one more ultrasound, and then they're recommending IUI on Sunday with plans to reconfigure my meds "if we don't conceive".

Please. The jig's up, let's face it.

This is probably related to my long stint on Lupron thanks to my beautiful cyst. At least, that's what I'm hoping. The Debbie-Downer part of me is wondering if this is some sort of sign that there are some other horrible things at play here. My RN doesn't seem to think so, and neither does L., but frankly, I think I have a right to be Debbie-Downer today given that I'm dealing with this news with massive amounts of hormones floating around in my body...needlessly, I might add.

Not much else to say except that life really sucks today.



16 comments:

Faith said...

Ugh, I'm so sorry. Hopefully you'll be able to listen to L's wisdom in the morning :)

Hope2morrow said...

It does sound like a sucky day. I'm sorry. You do know you can get pregnant with an IUI, right? I guess the good news is that it isn't a canceled cycle altogether.

Amy said...

I'm so sorry! I am glad that they will have you do IUI to at least have a shot at those 3 follicles. You do deserve to be a Debbie Downer today! Grrr!

One Blessed Momma! said...

I'm so sorry you are having a bad cycle. Keep you chin up!!

I Believe in Miracles said...

Leslie, I'm so sorry to hear this. I know what it's like to expect one thing and then have something else thrown at you entirely. It sucks. But I know God has great things in store for you. I'm praying for you, regardless of an IVF or IUI, that this is your cycle.
**HUGS**

Unknown said...

I'm so sorry.

I think I'm ready to give up on the whole thing before I even try any drugs. It's too disappointing I can't imagine being able to handle any more.

nancy said...

Oh damn. But it's just your first IVF cycle, so if the horribleness of cancel to IUI happens, that's just more info they'll know for the next cycle.

But I am so very sorry. ~hugs~

LANIE said...

I'm so sorry..love you girl..Love,Lanie

Lauren said...

I'm very sorry.

Lauren said...

I'm very sorry.

Penny said...

I'm so sorry.

When I had a cyst my medicated cycle was all screwy as well (I did injectibles + IUI). I always worry when someone says they have a cyst, it seems to make things go screwy sometimes.

But you know? The next cycle, my IVF, no cyst and it went beautifully. So I have hope. I wish you could rip that cyst out and stomp on it a few times.

And hey, you know? Weirder things have happened than getting pregnant from an IVF converted to IUI.

Emily said...

Oh crap! I am so sorry! I am holding out hope that things turn around at your next u/s. If not, I will have everything crossed that IUI is your miracle!

BIG HUGS!

Lea said...

I'm so sorry. I don't even know what to say, except don't give up. You have every right to be a Debbie Downer. Lots & lots of hugs.

Leslee said...

Leslie,

I hate this is happening. I hope that they are able to transition you smoothly into an iui, and if it doesn't work have a plan for the next IVF.

Hugs,
Leslee

Martin said...

Ugh.

I'm just so sorry.

Liz said...

Blame the hormones. Really. Its not you its them.