Wednesday, July 9, 2008

And The Roller Coaster Ride Continues....

Well, this morning began with yet another BFN (that's BIG FAT NEGATIVE - for those of you on Team Fertility who may not be familiar with all these cyber fertility acronyms, see the key I've created to the right). Day 28 has come and almost gone, and I'm still just as kidless as I was when the day began.

I've cried several times today, but I'm staring IVF right in the face. For the first time in my life, I'm not completely freaked out - just a little frightened. Trust me, that's progress compared to the hyperventilation I experienced the first time my RE mentioned that we were "good candidates for IVF". In fact, yesterday I ran across a copy of the letter my RE wrote to my gynecologist after our initial consultation. He referred to me as "very communicative" and a "little distressed about my infertility". Damn, this man is a genius. With that brilliant mind, surely he can help us create a real live embryo.

Tomorrow is my first appointment with my acupuncturist.

And, the ride continues....

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Maybe focusing on the excitement of Lance's new career, which you will be deeply connected to, could help you get thru these hurdles with work and IVF. I search for the right things to say. You already know you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Lauren said...

I'm just where you are, so welcome! (Sort of kidding--I guess it's not really appropriate to welcome someone to this part of the IF journey!) Anyway, we're also "good candidates" for IVF, and I too hyperventilate at times when thinking about IVF. It hasn't happened in a couple of weeks though, so that's progress!
I did acupuncture for a couple of months this spring and enjoyed it. I'm planning on doing it again if we choose to go the IVF route. I hope you like it!

CG said...

Sorry for the BFN. Hang in there girl. Big hug.

Penny said...

Damn, sorry to hear about the BFN. I'm approaching my first IVF soon as well. It's very overwhelming.

Leslee said...

Hey, Leslie, I'm Leslee.

Sorry about your BFN. I got mine yesterday as well. Sounds like we might be living in parallel universes ;) Evil parallel universes. Keep your chin up!

Leslee
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