Friday, October 3, 2008

The Dreaded Baby Shower


Well, it's here: the dreaded baby shower. I haven't mentioned much about it because I've been very busy this week trying to figure out how to shoot myself up with Lupron.

L. is out of town, so after a one evening tutorial, I've been on my own with the needles and that tiny bottle of a very expensive potion (I can't believe it's supposed to last through this cycle!).

So far the shots are going well, and I feel kind of good about actually doing something so concrete toward our goal.

However, tomorrow is a day that I am ready to live through and say goodbye to - I've been dreading it since February when my "IVF Friend" first revealed to me that she was pregnant.

I think I'll try to figure out some way to leave my body, so that at least it looks like I'm sitting there laughing and agreeing with all the "mommy advice" people love to give at showers: "Oh, that toy was simply a God-send for Johnny!" or "I used this cream on my nipples when I had such difficulty breastfeeding - I absolutely couldn't live without it!"

I hope no one asks me "the question" tomorrow. It's been awhile since I've seen most of these women (aka the Stepford Wives), and I really hope I don't have to look someone in the face after they've asked me when L. and I are going to be celebrating our little one.

I may just proclaim (very loudly) that I'm in the middle of an IVF cycle and I'll have to get back to them on that one.

I plan to park in a very strategic location that makes for an easy exit - just in case.

Pray for me tomorrow.


Postscript: Sorry I haven't been commenting much this week on blogs - I plan to catch up with all my blog reading on Sunday, and I'm really looking forward to it.

8 comments:

KandiB said...

Ahhh...the dreaded baby shower. So sorry. The last one I went to I told the host ahead of time that I could only stay for a little while cuz I had another something-or-other. It worked like a dream...

womb for improvement said...

I am so glad we don't do baby showers in the uk. Is the fact that it is your IVF friend's shower going to mean she'll be a bit more sensitive to how you'll feel - or has she forgotten everything?

Xbox4NappyRash said...

All I can say is thank God baby showers are not tradition here.

Best of luck!

Sonya said...

I am praying for you! Trust me I have been there one too many times. I have sat through 4 showers for my brothers wife and 1 for my husbands brothers wife. These were very difficult times for me. Just remember, if you need to leave do it, you do not have to put yourself through that pain!!!

Alex and Jill said...

Praying today goes well. I know how hard baby showers are...

((HUGS))

SAHW said...

Good luck today, I hope it won't be too hard on you! I am finding even now, ie, being pregnant, I still feel like an outsider and like I don't belong at these type of things...it's kind of odd. My strategy at showers is to try to attach myself to whoever is unmarried or doesn't have any kids, so I can steer the conversation away from babies...hopefully there is someone like that there today. :)

rgram962 said...

I am praying for you. I'm sure you will handle it with grace like always.
Love,
Ruth

Hope2morrow said...

I understand your pain. I'm so sorry. I wish you didn't have to go....